Hello everyone! Long time...Just wanted to keep you all posted. My right ankle has been swollen for weeks and I haven't been sure what is up. One night I was laying on the bed and Spencer was with me. I lifted up both of my legs and the difference was so funny we could not quit laughing! I asked my oncologist and he didn't have a clue. I waited to see if it would get better...it didn't. I called my primary doctor. It is Edema caused by the steroids. That stupid Dexamethasone has messed me up so badly in a ton of ways. I now have a new medicine!! WHOOOOO HOOOOO! It is one that makes you pee all of the extra fluid. so maybe I won't look so Fluid filled...LOL. So now I have 9 pills to take in the morning. We are going to stop taking the Dex. as soon as I am done with this bottle. I have to ween myself off a little at a time. I can't just stop...we know what happens when I do that. Not good. Anyway, Spencer and I went and got our tree today and will decorate it tomorrow after it loosens up. Dean and I have decided to have Christmas at our house. Should be fun, thinking paper plates and plastic silverware!! Just kidding. More later or when I have news. MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!

Hello everyone, I'm posting today with a heavy heart. Something wonderful happened yesterday because of a wonderful person. And because of that person, our family won a wonderful prize. A Family Christmas! After I got off of the phone, I told my 12 year old son. He said "But mom, we don't need it cause we already won a Christmas from your old work!" Wow!! Outa the mouths of babes. I quickly told Dean, he said about the same thing. We will already be given what we need, so why not let another family have a Christmas. I called the lady back and told her we would be declining the prize and why. She called me today to tell me thank you and that she couldn't believe that we would do that. I told her that When we are in need, I'll ask now, but when we have more than we need, we will give. Yesterday we gave and made another family happy that may have need it more than us. Now, this is not to take away from the wonderful thoughtfullness of the person that wanted us to win. We will be forever grateful. Yes it would have been amazing to have two Christmases HOWEVER, we are not a selfish family. I ask and pray for what we need and it is provided to us. We could not see taking 2 gifts so big as to rob another family of joy. I looked up definitions of selfishness just to see if this was us.... here they are... selfish
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: thinking only of oneself
Synonyms: egocentric, egoistic, egoistical, egomaniacal, egotistic, egotistical, greedy*, hoggish, mean, mercenary, miserly, narcissistic, narrow, narrow-minded, out for number one, parsimonious, prejudiced, self-centered, self-indulgent, self-interested, self-seeking, stingy, ungenerous, wrapped up in oneself
I will not and don't raise our children to act or think this way and my 12 year old showed us that yesterday. We are so proud of him! Let me know what you all think, what would you have done? Thanks for reading.
Anna

Here it is............MRI IS CLEAR!!!! NOT EVEN ANY SWELLING!!! I, we almost fell out of our chairs. Dr. Rosenfeld came in and quickly said it..."Your MRI looks great" I guess I had that look of....Holy Crap..tell me right now...and he did. He is going to reduce my Dexamethasone also. I did ask him what were the effects of the surgery I already had. He told me "personality change" I don't think I have changed but my children and my honey bunny sure do. I'm a bit more cranky maybe? I don't know, you can ask my husband. I really and truely thought it was back. Dean says we have to start living now, which is true. My next apt is in 4 months!!! MRI and blood work a week before. Unless I have any problems, I'm done for now and CANCER FREE!!!

Just a quick post to say thank you for all of your phone calls! A reminder, my apt. is at 2pm this afternoon. Remember, it is a doctor's office so it may take a while. When we get home we will first talk to our children, then post, then, make phone calls. Keep praying, I'm getting nervious. Love to all.

Hey everyone! I had my MRI yesterday and I got a copy of the results. HOWEVER, I have no idea how to read it. I see my brain, but don't know what else to look for. I will have to wait until Friday's apt. at 2pm. Probably gonna go crazy until then but what can I do. I will do my best to post Friday late afternoon or Friday night to let you all know the results. Have a great week!

It is almost Thanksgiving and my family has decided to have Turkey Day here. Dean said he will do all of the cooking...right! Not sure he knows how long and hard it is to make everyones favorites. Which is what I have been doing for years. Well, mostly my favorites. Not sure if I can give up the control of the food and the kitchen. I'll let you know. I called my new doctor today and guess what....I got a call back TODAY!! I wanted to know if I should get a FLU shot. Yes I should. I will do that soon. Dean is and has been working the past few days. Thank you Jesus. Zachary had his wisdom teeth taken out yesterday and is very swollen today but luckily not been sick. The pain killers have kept him pretty sleepy. Well, turkey is in the sink, hoping it is thawed by Wednesday night, Dean is going to smoke it I think. I'll be back in a couple of days! HAPPY TURKEY DAY TO EVERYONE!!!

Hey everyone! Just got back from my appointment with Dr. Rosenfeld...(new doctor) LOVE HIM!!! He took time to answer all of my questions which filled an entire notebook page. So here are the answers. Most of my issues are with the 4mg of Dexamethazone aka steroids so when I put Dex. that is what is stands for. Here we go. Swollen right ankle, swollen face with broken capillaries, skin breakdown (scratching and getting blood blisters, brusing) indigestion, sleeping problems amd massive weight gain...TOO MUCH DEX!!! He wants to cut it in half from 4mg to 2mg. Oh the most important...Roid Rage...DEX!!! He didn't think that my sinus problems were from radiation so I will just keep taking the nose spray. New MRI right after Turkey Day with follow-up two days later. If cancer is back, a few options, Avastin thru IV with Temadar. Not the pill form of Temadar that made me so sick, this one is thru IV also and he said it is easier to tollerate. My Dilanton level was 14.6, normal is between 10-20. So that is good, he did say we could try to taper off the Dilanton but possible side effects would be another seizure. I'm gonna stay on the Dilanton for now. I do believe that covers my list. Oh, the clinical trials...they don't have any right now for GBM's. I did ask about the news report we saw on tv and he said if the cancer is back, he can send me to MD Anderson or Duke for their trial. I get the meds from them and come home. If only someone else could have taken a few seconds to say that, I don't think I would have been so upset. Now, I think that is all. Might just take a nap, I did fold laundry this morning when everyone else was asleep. More later friends! Thanks for reading and keeping up with me.
Love to all,
Anna

Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't written in a while. Not much to say. I do have an apointment on Thursday with my new Oncologist. I will let you all know as soon as I am home how it went. That's it! sorry guys...more later.

Movie was really good! I laughed like crazy about the pregnancy pillow. Those of you have seen it and have had a baby and a "pillow" know what I mean. Watched a few other shows then fell asleep in the chair. Going to lay down now. Cathy!!! What is the time difference between here and Hong Kong? Maybe we can chat tomorrow. Let me know. Oh, thanks to those of you who told the truth and looked at the "boils" on YouTube...LOL

I almost made it until 9 and almost made it until 3. Oh well, guess I'll drink my coffee and watch my movie. Anyone else up that wants to chat? LOL I will let you all know how my movie was. Oh, it is The Backup Plan. DON't tell me if it is terrible. More later guys!

Hello all. It is only 6:57 and I am ready for bed! If I go to bed now, I'll be up at 2. Not gonna do it. I'm going to try to make it until 9 so then I'll be up at 3. We started NetFlix so I have a movie to watch in the morning. Oh...I went running errands today and txted Zachary and I took him and his lovely girlfriend out to lunch. What a nice time. I understand why Zachary is crazy about her. Spencer says hello to you all. His birthday is next Friday. He hopes he gets money to go towards his summer camp at New Life Ranch. We will see. Just wanted to check in with everyone, hard to believe you guys like reading all of this silly stuff. Oh, Roxanne, it is easy to be able to post a comment. You have to sign up with Google. It just takes a screen name and password. Just use your regular email name and password, they don't do anything with it and you won't get any spam. Thanks for reading everyone!

Our crazy weekends are almost over! Spencer had a doubleheader yesterday. His team finished the season 12-1-1. 12 Wins, 1 lose, and 1 forfiet from the other team. Then after the games, celebration at Mad Pizza in Rogers. It was a buffett and we all felt sick last night. I think we ate more Tums than slices. Anyway, Zachary went to the games too and brought his lovely girlfriend Christina. I very much enjoyed talking to her. Dean and I met her parents last night when we brought her home, such nice people. Yesterday was a long day. Church first, ran home to grab a bite to eat, pack for long day of baseball. It was really fun. I scream so loudly for Spencer that I almost loose my voice. He was catcher of course, then he pitched, and played 1st and 3rd base. How proud we are of him. I am so glad he is and did not play football this year after seeing all of the concussions in the NFL and College football this year. It was meant to be, I really believe that. We got home about 8ish and I hit the bed right away. Slept until 3am. This time change has really thrown me off. Now, I am sooooo tarred. (tired for you Robert LOL) Anyway, might just take a nap early. Love to you all! Oh, How many of you went to YouTube and looked at popping boils???? Maybe I'm just sick but you can also watch Brain Surgery on YouTube too...very cool. Bye for now.

Morning everyone! I went to bed at a good hour...9ish. Woke up at a good hour too...4ish. I have to tell you all, I have never been one to apply for help, but now, I don't have a choice. Spencer was awarded a scholarship to New Life Ranch Camp for next summer!!! We do have to pay for some of it so I told him....find a way to make money honey! He was and is very excited but we will see if he tries to make money. I'll keep you all posted. No pun intended. Anywho....I'm gonna do some laundry, fun, fun, fun! More later.

I'm back for a quick post. I am going back to bed, well, to bed in a few minutes, cause I haven't slept yet. I must tell you all that I have a quilty pleasure besides watching boils pop. Did you go to YouTube? Anyway, Dean and I watched Dexter last night. Three episodes and we wanted more. Dean tapes them or DVR's them and we waited till there were 5 but I fell asleep during 1 and 2. So we were up until 1am which is oh so way past my bedtime and oh so close to my wake up time that I couldn't sleep. So I just stayed up. Made the coffee at 3:30 and drank the whole pot before 6am. Had to make Dean another pot. Well, that's it for today!!! Have a blessed day everyone.

Today is November 3rd!! I'm trying to get the boys up and ready for school. Spencer asked for a ride, I said yes. Not sure how many chances I will have to drive them to school, so I'm gonna. BRB gotta help find stuff! Found! Can you believe it? Not sure why no one can find stuff but me. Does anyone else have that problem? I can usually find stuff within about 30 seconds. You won't believe what I got hooked watching on YouTube yesterday! Popping Boils...I know...gross. BUT when you start watching, you just can't stop. I dare you to try it. Let me know if you can stop with just one. Kinda like chips or Hersey kisses. Once you have one, what difference does a few more hurt. Go on, try it, go to YouTube and look it up. The best one is under..."How do prevent Boils"...I think. Go on...I'll wait. LOL Just kidding...gotta go for now. BBL is that Be back later? Don't know all of the txt lingo.

Let's see....HOG WIN BIG TIME!!! CAN'T REMEMBER THE SCORE BUT I DO KNOW WE KICKED BUTT. I had one light beer and was ready for bed at 7pm. How sad is that? We left tailgate at halftime, went to get Spencer at a Halloween Party, came home and went to bed. We got lost and almost ran out of gas. If I would have known where we where...you bet I would have rubbed it in Dean's face. I had no idea. I only got up once last night, then got up at 5am. I felt good, then fell asleep on the couch watching The Blindside. What a great movie. Oh, you wanna hear an OH MY LORD, HE IS LISTENING!? I have been so worried about money and how are we gonna pay for this and that....Dean got a test message this morning that said..."Go look in your mailbox" we did and there was a card filled with money!! It said from your Hogtropolis Family. That is our tailgate family. I couldn't believe it...started crying...just like church. For those of you who think the Lord does not hear you...just ask me. going to eat lunch, then take a nap, then Spencer to BB practice. Love you all.

Holy Cow it is cold!! It is going to be in the 20's tonight so I guess I'm going to have to close my windows. I don't mind the cold, it's the wind that gets me. Guess what we saw across the street the other morning? A DEER!!! Just standing in my neighbors driveway. Zack saw it, told me thru the window, I came outside and watched it walk all the way up the middle of the street. Cars were getting out of its way, stopping, looking in shock, like me. I live in the middle of the city for goodness sake! I have a rant....I'm sure that most of you have already heard of Clint McCance. I heard it on the news and was so angry that I went right to HLN, CNN and made a post. What a hatfull man. Now I know I'm going to hear it from my brother, he likes to tease me for my views, but bring it on. This man is on the local School Board of his town. Well, you guys can read about him or just watch the news. Just think, if he has children....they will be haters too. Oh so sad. More later, I've gotta eat dinner.

Hello, coffee took longer than usuall this morning, so I'm a bit slow. Spencer won his game yesterday!! I was suprised they had it because of all the rain. But it was a beautiful day. Again he hit a 3 run homerun. I was told it was 5 feet from the fence. The fence is 300 feet away from home plate. All I can say is holy cow! He said if he would had a "big" barrell...it would have gong over the fence. Don't know about all of that but a mama is proud!!! Our weekends are so crazy that is it a blessing when Monday comes. Spencer is having a terrible allergy attack, as well as me, Dean and even Zachary. He slept on the way to his game. He went right in the house and was in bed 30 seconds after we got home. Zachary's 17th birthday is on Tuesday. I can't believe we have a 17 year old!! Yep, I'm that old. Oh well, what are you gonna do. I've been hoping that it doesn't take me getting sick again to get you all to post a comment. I know you all are busy, life goes on. Zack had a really bad day yesterday. He called us at the BB game and said that he had hit his head with a bat! He was bored, took a bat he keeps by his bed, went outside and was hitting it on a tree. It bounced back and hit him on his head. He has a goose egg bump that had a little blood, he put water on it which we all know makes it look worse. I told him to take Tylenol and we would be home as soon as we could. He got ready for work, ran into Hastings to return a movie, jumped back into his friends car, ripped his pants almost in half. He called work to let them know he would be a bit late and instead of covering the phone, the person just yelled to the manager, Zachary heard them saying...."How the f*&^ is it?" and many other choice words. Of course his feelings were hurt. Just wish he wouldn't heard it. He stayed home, they were letting him off early every night anyway. Poor thing. He will now be looking for another job. Gotta go get his Birthday present today. We have a ton of things to do this week so I'm gonna make a list. OH you won't believe this....yesterday I was doing dishes....I put a casserol dish in the fridge...a clean one without food in it. OMG! I saw that in a movie about Alzheimerzs...oh well, Zack said if I start putting my car keys in there, then I need another check-up. Talk to you all later, going to watch Brother & Sisters.

GO HOGS GO!!! THE HOGS BEAT OL'MISS!!!! After a 4 hour game with 2 weather delays, we beat Ol' Miss. The look on Houston Nutt's face was priceless. He was pissed. Just what I wanted. Anyway, I was so tired yesterday after the tailgate that it was very hard not to go to bed at 6pm. I made it till 9! I woke up several times but got up at 4. I realized something last night...I sleep on my hands. Strange right? I'm a bit strange and have always been. At least that is what Dean tells me. Ok...had a great time yesterday...my brother came for the tailgate...which was awesome! He did tease me about my spelling...it sucks...but that is me. I'm sure if there is anything you guys can't read or understand..someone would let me know. Robert (brother) said I should type first on WORD then copy and paste here...that would take too long!!! So, this is what you get. I promise to spell UGLY with a Y not an E. There is something he and Dean forget...I have a brain tumor, not saying it is effecting my spelling because I have always been a bad speller. Whatever. I need some advise! I'm still getting emails and post from Facebook about this PH balance is the cure for cancer. Wow, if only it were that easy. Not sure what to say to them. I've tried to show the websites that say...it is a scam. Here is another website that states it....Cure-ious Ask.com On this site there is a place to report scams like this but these people are SURE it works. I only hope they never have cancer. Makes me very sad. AND it is hurtful. Not sure she knows that what she is doing is "hurtful". How could anyone do something knowing that is hurting anothers feelings on purpose? Time for more coffee! BRB
It is Sunday morning and boy would I like to stay home today. Every weekend we are on the go till Monday morning. But as I have said before, I know the days I don't want to go to church are the days I NEED to go and will hear something I NEED to hear, so I'll go. It's now 5:30 and I am wanting to go lay in bed, but if I do, I might fall asleep. OH, we say my Ongologist at the tailgate yesterday...Dr. Hayward. I don't see him until November, but it was kinda strange to see him outa the office. Going to watch some of my shows that only I like...like...Real Housewives....something other that American Dad or Family Guy. The truth is those shows aren't so bad now that I have to watch them almost every night. They make Dean fall asleep fast. See ye later!!

Ok, I'm going to try to post a link, I make no promises...here goes. Didn't work, so I will just type the address. good-water.biz/alkaline_water_scams.html Here is the story. A "friend" on Facebook posted "A Cure" for terminal cancer that states balancing your PH will cure cancer. This is bull*#@&. If doing this were true, don't you think everyone would be eating a box on Baking Soda? This is twice I have been told this. The first time was at one of my son's baseball games. A man just came up to me and asked me if I was going thru cancer treatment? My hair had fallen out and I had a hat on. I told him yes....he said I have great news. He told me a story about PH balance in water and it would cure me. He tried to convince me that he had no other goal than to help. My son heard all of this and got so excited thinking...Wow...my mom isn't going to die! He went to his car and brought me a few gallons of water. He also told me that his father-in-law had died a few months ago of cancer, which should have been my first clue...if it worked...save your wifes father!!! I was a bit excited I must say. He gave me a pamflet, a business card....lots of info. He and his wifes name and email was on the info as well. I came home and looked it up on the internet...SCAM!! I was so mad at myself for letting myself get excited. Then...I had to tell Spencer. Ok..blah blah blah. NOW scam number 2. The Post of the "Cure". I replied with how dare you basicly. Not sure if she really believes it or what. I told her, if just balancing your PH and a good diet was the cure, Someone would be on the news proclaiming the cure and would be the most famous person in the world. I'm not sure why people do this, she says she makes no money on saying this but makes you think. I am embarrased to admit I did for a few minutes believe the first man at the baseball game. It took me from Spring until now to even say it. Well, there it is. This is some of my ugle. Maybe more later.

Today is Friday, I think?! LOL Anyway, we are up drinking coffee and watching Real Housewives of DC reunion. Oh so funny....the Salahis are nuts, you remember, the White House crashers. We have another Tailgate party on Saturday morning. The best part of Saturday morning is we will have mamosas. Champagne and OJ....my favorite. My brother might come as well as my sister. My brother asked last night something about the "tent". LOL he has no idea how big our tailgate is. No tent, promise. OH...there is a tent for the golfcart limo to park under while waiting for everyone to get on. So if you are going to the game, ride in style. Anyway...everyone will see how wonderful it is. Full open bar, so much food you will feel sick. I could go on and on and on. Right now I need more coffee. I need to find a link for something and then I will tell you all about it. You won't believe it. There is a "Cure" for terminal cancer. And holy cow, all the doctors in the whole world don't know about it. I'll be back later with the link.

Just had a wonderful lunch with my sister Lisa! It was so fun just visiting with her and eating of course. I have to say, that God does answer prayers. I got a call from one of the nurses from WRMC the other day and she said that they (the OR staff) wanted us to be their Christmas family! I have been so worried about Christmas this year because of the financial burden we are under. Zachary and Spencer's birthdays are in October and November. Ok...when you are the "Christmas Family"....you make a list of what your children want for Christmas and they try to fill the list. This includes food. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! Although, I haven't bought anything retail in years, this is gonna be hard to accept gifts from others. I'm not going to tell Spencer because he will put the most expensive things on his list...remember he is 11. I have a headache now and going to try to take a nap. More later today.

It is Tuesday morning and it is rainging! Boy do we need it. Spencer went to Tulsa yesterday to the Zoo and had a great time. However last night before bed, he didn't feel good. And of course this morning when I woke him up, he still feels sick. What does a parent do when their child says they are sick. (You know they are just really tired) Dean and I told him last night, we kinda knew this was coming, then he says, we don't care about him at all. Are you kidding me? Well, I could go on for ever on how we care and if we didn't....we would'nt drive to Bentonville every week for hours and watch his games, or make sure he has everything he needs...blah blah blah blah. anyone else have this issue? Any advise would be great. I go into a roid rage so I just need to keep my mouth shut. Because then I say stuff I will regret. The other day, I got really mad because I went to the fridge to get cookie dough, and it had been opened, put back into the fridge UNCOVERED! We all know what that does, dries it out so it is no good. I started yelling, took the cookie dough down the hall to show Dean, screaming and then threw it against the wall. My dogs loved it! This happens often, so I just have to keep my mouth shut, bite my tongue. I know that words can hurt and sometimes you will never forget what someone says to you. So, I have to just keep it shut as to not hurt my children. This doesn't mean I don't get REALLY mad. I need to count on Dean to keep me from saying something I can't take back. more later, gotta try to get Spencer up again.

What a game yesterday!! I got is on video...he Cracked a hit, got two runners in, then himself. Every time he got up to bat, the other teams coach yelled..."Get Back...Get Back" LOL We had fun, 3 more games to go. One next week and two the following week. Last night was soup and sandwiches, then right to bed. I slept till 5:45 this morning. Almost freaked out...that is late for me, but did have time to wake up the boys. Dean took Spencer and a few friends to the Tulsa Zoo for a school trip. He is brave! So I am all alone today. There is so much I need to do, but I just don't want to do anything. I want to enjoy being alone. Guess I shouldn't do that too much, don't wanna leave the guys with a messy house! Oh, going to go find a new store today. It is called My sisters closet. One of the ladies giving her testamony at church yesterday said all proceeds go to mission work. I will let you know what it was like. See ya!

Good Morning again! I did take a nap..holy cow! It is now time to stay up and get ready for church. I must say I could go back to bed, but what I tell the boys, "When you don't want to go, is when you hear what you need to hear the most" So....I'm going. Then run home to get ready for the double header in Bentonville. Sometimes it is very cold there, other times it is hotter than hell. So I pack the car acordingly. Won't be back till after 6pm. Our weekends are perfect for hambergers or soup and sandwiches. Something easy. That's nice. Talk to you guys later!

Up extra early today...couldn't go back to sleep after about 1:30 so I started coffee at 2:30. I've been on the internet for awhile just looking up stupid stuff. Now I'm watching Glee, I miss the reciever being in the living room. I don't wanna wake up Dean. Oh well! Arkansas sucked yesterday...thinking the Chargers will suck today too if they are playing. I, we need to get another team to cheer for. All will be worth it if we beat Ol' Miss next week. Gonna try to take a nap before everyone has to get up. Busy day, church, and then a double header for Spencer today. Hope he cracks it outa the park today. We will try to get it recorded again to put it on YouTube. Last time, Dean was so excited that the phone camera taped the ground the whole time he was running. Maybe I'll try today. More later guys...thanks for reading and I would still love to hear your comments.

Ok....I did go to Garage Sales. I bought a small Fridge/Freezer for our room because our children eat way too much and if we want something...we have to hide it but now they know our hiding places. I should have gotten a chain and lock for it too. LOL Anyway, I'm tarred (tired, sleepy) but I want to watch the Razorback game today so I'm gonna take a shower and have Zack get the fridge outa the car. Have a great weekend!

Hello and good Saturday morning to you all. I slept in today, till 5am. WOW I know...I know... Whatever. Spencer wants to go to Garage Sales today. Not sure I want to go. We'll see, I'll let you know. Gotta get more coffee. MIGHT go back to bed. Or maybe get the paper to look at Garage Sales! LOL

What a day! It is almost 10pm and boy am I tired. Ran errands today, found an awesome pair of what I call slippers, some call comfort shoes at a Thrift Store yesterday and LOVE THEM...but, the bottoms are breaking apart all over the house. So, not gonna wear them anymore but I love them and I have no idea who makes them or where they came from. The bottem is falling off and I have never heard of or seen the logo. Started looking on Ebay at 3:30 this morning for high-end slippers and nothing. I took them to Plato's Closet (most of you ladies know this store) and asked them. They buy shoes all day. The manager loved them too and she started looking on their computer. She had a great idea...what about taking to a cobbler? I went to 3 and they all said "no hope". The bottom is rotting because they are old. Oh well, time to look for more shoes! I then txted my son Zachary and asked if he wanted to go to lunch...he said sure! We went to Zaxby's and had a great lunch together. Did a few more errands then went home and took a nap. Got up, Spencer was home now and I asked if he wanted to go to a movie...of course he said yes. We did dinner first at Louis after getting him some shoes at Plato's for Cotillion tomorrow night. After dinner we went to see RED. It was great, I highly reccomend seeing it. Now it is after 10pm way past my bedtime and I am soooooo tired, but promised to write again today. So I had a great day with my boys, now going to get coffee ready for morning, then start all over again. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend. Love to all. Anna

Morning...guess what I'm watching? The Real Housewives of DC reunion!!! They are slamming the White House crashers...love it! I haven't called Dr. Rosenfeld yet, thinking it might be a bit strange since both docs work at the same clinic. I might get the nerve today. Hold for a min. gotta get more coffee, it is 5am! BRB Back! Going to watch the rest of RH of DC reunion. More later.

Good Morning everyone! It is 4:28 and I am up...of course. Wish I could sleep till 6 even 5:30 would be great but here I am. First of all, thanks to Stephon for watching the message from Grace Church for me as a back up. He said the same things that my Pastor said. It is fine to continue looking for alternate treatments, it won't hurt my faith or make it look like I don't have any faith. So I called my Pastor again and asked him if there were any Oncologist at the church. He got back to me about an hour later and said YES!! His name is Steven Rosenfeld. I will be calling him today to see if he will take me as a new patient. The only thing is, he works at HOG along side Dr. Hayward. It night be a bit tough. But, I think I need a change. Someone that wants me to do a clinical trial instead of saying...I know nothing about it...you can do it on your own. I will let everyone know how it goes later today. Wish me luck!

Morning, its 4:32 and we are up drinking coffee. Yesterday after church, Zachary Spencer and I went to Arkinshire to have lunch with our Friends and old neighbors Alice and Anna Losey. It was great, just like they said..a five star hotel. I must say I was very suprised. I have been in a retirement village and it ant pretty. There place is wonderful comparred to that. Lunch was the big meal of the day and it came in 5 courses, just like a restaurant. After lunch, we rushed home to packup the car for Spencer's game in Bentonville. They won...10/8! The best thing is Spencer cracked a triple! Amost over the 300 ft. fence. and he did it twice. Right now he wants to play baseball all thru High School and College instead of football. Whatever he wants and If I get to see him play, even better. My aunt Millie and her daughter Alex came for a bit...it was great...thanks for coming. What was even greater...my boys (Dean, Zack, Spencer) got to meet the Dunns, whom I love! Kathy & Jerry Dunn came to the game for a bit and boy did they make me happy. I got to tell Zachary why I love them and think of them as family. They are two of the most genuine people I know, so is their daughter Becky! Thanks for coming everyone.

I have a ton of things to do today, and I will write it down because if I don't it probably won't get done. I'm gonna make my list now and get Dean more coffee!!! He says he is more comfortable than me so I should get the coffee. More later.

It is 4:15 on Friday and I called HOG again and left another message, this one not so nice after 3 different calls/messages with no return answers. I got a call from the nurse on phone duty. She said that the doctor DOESN'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THE TRIALS AND IF i WANT,,, I CAN CALL THEM MYSELF. WOW!!! If he doesn't have time to check out something that might help one of his patients, I'm thinking I don't have time for him. So I called the records dept and asked for ALL of my records so I can call Duke and or MD Anderson. I have to say I am socked and a bit pissed. Now I am going to do my own research. I'll keep you all posted! LOL

Morning! Couldn't sleep so I was up at 3am. I've been looking up other oncologist in town. I can't wait to call HOG this morning. I will for sure let all of you know what happens today.

Good Evening everyone! I know this is strange me posting in the evening but there is something I just had to say. I'm thinking of firing my oncologist tomorrow and getting another one. Now that I have my faith crissis over with, oh and Melanie...thanks for the reference...perfect. Ok, Dean and I watched the NBC news I think on Monday night and they were talking about a new vaccine for glioblastomias at MD Anderson and at Duke Medical Center with promising results. We were very excited, Dean called my Dr. on Tuesday...left a message. I called Wednesday...left message. It is now Thursday night and NO REPLY!!!! This is the same thing that happened when I had my MRI. They didn't feel, I'm guessing, it was important to call me with my results. So all hell is gonna break loose in the morning when I call OR drive up there for an answer. I do realize that doctors need to have a life also, BUT they made the choice to be a doctor and answering patients questions. I will let you all know what I decide to do and what answer I get to the vaccine question. Praying I am a candidate!

Morning! Woke up at 3am, so tired now but gotta wake up the boys in a few minutes. Did talk to my Pastor, got it figured out, thanks Pastor Vaughn! Here is some news! Dean and I heard on the nightly news a few nights ago that there is a phase II trial for glioblastomas at MD Anderson and at Duke. It is an injection that seems to work if the cancer has not come back yet. We called my doctor Tuesday and Wednesday to find out if I am a candidate for the trial. He has been working in Bentonville the past few days and will give me a call when he comes back to Fayetteville. Fingers crossed everyone!!! Will post as soon as we know anything. Love you all

Hey everyone, sorry I haven't posted in a while but I've been busy. Also I've been having a faith crissis. The Grace Church in Overland,KS. is having an 8 part series on Faith. My brother's church, so he sent me the link and I listened to the first part and boy am I confussed! The study was in James 1:1-9 I think...and it said to just trust in the Lord with out a "plan B". Well, does that mean no more treatment? No plans for trial treatment? I have no idea so I have called my Pastor to help answer my questions. I'll let you all know what he says when I talk to him today.

Got up early today, about 3:30, started the coffee, and sat down to watch one of my shows. "Teen Mom" I know, I know, I got hooked watching these stupid girls having a baby at 16, thinking everything was gonna be normal for them. Makes me laugh. Dean woke up and I think he likes it too! It is better than watching Adult Swim cartoons, or Family Guy. Although, I do find myself watching some of Family Guy and some of American Guy when I fall asleep. Anyway, big day yesterday, I cleaned out my chest of drawers and donated about 70 o/o of my stuff. I will make in into my closet today. It is very cleansing. Everyone should try it. Gonna watch "Glee" now, does anyone else like these shows? More later...love you all
Anna

The weekend went bye super fast! First...GREAT TAILGATE on Saturday, just too bad we couldn't hold our early lead. I did tell someone that I would rather beat Ol'Miss if I had to choose. Oh well. Church on Sunday, then a double header for Spencer that afternoon. HOLY COW can that kid hit the ball. If the game were in Fayetteville, they would have gone over two fences. The field they play on is much much bigger. He was so excided that he almost forgot to run. They won both games and I amost got into a fight the second game!! The other team's coaches wife was working the scoreboard. She did not do well, that is what I will say. I sat on the tail gate of our Yucon, with a blanket and coffee, and my hoodie. Last weekend it was 100 degrees and this past weekend was 55. I guess it was too much to ask for it to be pleasant. Just got email from Spencer's coach, we haven't gotten a jersey yet, he wears an adult large and he told me they may not make them in his size but he can wear a SUPERMAN jersey after the hits he got yesterday! Hoping next week we will video tape him and put it on YouTube for all to see. More later...gotta do laundry.

Thursday...one day closer to the weekend. We have a very busy weekend. Tail gate and game against Number 1 Alabama on Saturday, Church and double header baseball bage on Sunday. Hoping it won't rain after Friday. I'm sleeping a little bit better. Not sure why. Only got up once last night, then woke up at 4:30. Spencer is off for the bus already. One down, one to go. Not sure what I want to do today, wish I could go to work. I miss everyone, attendants, scrubs, nurses, doctors, RS people, everyone! If I could name everyone I would but since I am 45 my memory has gone. My husband and boys would like to think and tell me all the time it is because of the tumor, but I think differently. I could be wrong and not know it. SO, I now have a tape recorder so that I can tape conversations and play back what was said that way I won't think I'm going crazy! Have a great day!

Hi everyone! I slept pretty well last night and I made it thru yesterday. I had to go to WRMC to clean out my locker. Didn't think I would make it without having a full breakdown. My badge doesn't work on the old doors I used to go in and there was no parking in the employee lot so I parked in the ER lot. Was crying before I got out of the car. I prayed that I could hold it together. I know it is had to believe because I only worked there about 6 months, but it was my first out-of-house job in 17 years. I loved everyone I worked with. I had a purpose and I did my job well. It was exciting with something new everyday. (a new surgery) I loved to hear the helocopter coming thinking someing would need emergency surgery. Anyway, I brought a big bag, had to have someone let me in to the locker room. I heard voices and thought I would panic. I didn't, I just walked in, put my bag down in front of my locker, then brought the dishes into the lounge that were left at my house from all of the wonderful ladies that made food for us earlier this year...saw Deborah, who gave me a hug and said..."I hear you're coming back!" I told her no, I can't, couldn't get my doctor to sign me off on working. Then...there came the tears, from us both. From them on, it was a waterfall. So I moved quickly to empty out my locker. Had no idea how much crap I had in there till it started coming out. Just a few people came in and saw me. All asked ARE YOU COMING BACK??? HOW GREAT! I had to say no, I can't. Then more tears. so then I moved even faster so that I wouldn't see anyone from my team. I turned in all of my stuff, pager, book, I.D. badge and the lock from my locker. I told Deborah to tell my people goodby and I was out the door. I had made it without a big deal really and boy was I glad. That was so hard I can't tell you. Gotta get coffee, maybe more later today.
Anna

I'm back...got the boys off to school without much trouble. I'm so tired, but have lots to do today. Gonna start cleaning the house, laundry, blah blah blah. I am going to try to go to WRMC and clean out my locker, not sure I can without crying like a baby. We will see and of course I will let you all know. Thank you to my brother for listening yesterday. I was a mess. I can't talk to Dean, because he is sick. I can't talk to the boys because they are boys, so thank you Robert for being there. This weekend will be busy! HOG game vs. BAMA on Saturday, then Spencer has a double-header on Sunday. If it is hot, again, not sure I'm going to Spencer's games. Will let you know. Gonna get started on my chores, I'll do laundry first cause I hate it. I am gratefull I can do it right now.

It's Tuesday morning and I can't sleep!!! Just started the coffee maker because I'm tired of staring at the clock. I guess a lot of people get up at 3:50...right??? Kinda afraid that if I go to bed now, I'll not be able to wake up the boys for school. Yesterday was a bad day for me. It seemed that everything came and hit me in the face. Not being able to go back to work. My benifets lowered big time. Question, can any of you quys feed 4 people on $117.00? I spend that at least once a week. Hold on...getting coffee. I'm back and feel sick. Went to bathroom and thought I was gonna pass out. I'll take abreak and be back later.

Morning, it's Sunday morning bout 7:45 and I have finished the coffee. I watched
"Dear John" this morning....what a good movie. I cryed of course. I'm gonna jump into the shower soon and get ready for church. Spencer played great yesterday, he is a great catcher. And oh so cute! They tied which is better than getting beat to heck last week. After the game, he decides he wants to do Cotillion. Both of my boys need some manners. We have NOTHING for him to wear. It is semi-formal. We don't do semi-formal. I was shocked of how so many moms were jumping to lend us clothing. In California, I don't believe anyone would have done that in fear of not getting their stuff back. Anyway, on our way home, Spencer said..."Dad, can you drive faster, My stomach hurts!" We made it home in time for him to run into the house and have explosive diarrea. Sorry to be so graghic, but it is true. Needless to say he didn't make it to Cotillion for the first night. We were all dehydrated because of the game. It was flippin hot at the game. I, we are so sick of this heat. If I start complaining of the cold weather...someone please remind me of the summer heat. Gonna wake up the boys, maybe more later.

Morning everyone! I had a follow-up apt. with my Oncologist yesterday. He asked me what we want to do....agressive or not. So I want to to do MRI's and more treatment or not. So I will talk to Dean and let him and you all know. Bad news is, he declaired me permanently disabled. So no work for me, I cryed. My sister had a great idea. I should volinteer at the hospital or at a hospice. I'm trying to have faith that this is what is to be and a greater good will come of this. AND my sadness over missing all of the people at WRMC I will miss. It's early and Dean is up with me having coffee and watching TV. We have a game today in Bentonville. Going to enjoy the day. More later, maybe tonight.

Morning, not good morning because I feel like someone beat me up. Very stuffy, headache, and ache like crazy. Not sure if I have a bad cold or maybe Mono. I have an apt. today at 3pm. with Oncologist. I'll let you all know as soon as I do what he says. Going back to bed. Oh....had a great time with my Dad, sister, and two neices for dad's birthday.

Good Morning and a BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DAD!!!!! Not sure he wants me to tell his age, but he acts younger than I am sometimes. Ok, I have a problem. I can't remember crap!!! Don't know if I have plans with Becky today or is it tomorrow? I've started writing everything down AND I have a small recorder to record conversations with family so they might stop looking at me like I'm crazy because I can't remember if they are grounded or not or if I said NO, you can't drive to somewhere far away for a concert. I'm just hoping to not make a REALLY big mistake and forget something really important. I'll let you know if I make a huge booboo.

Well guys, I think I spoke too soon. After talking to Dean yesterday about going back to work....we decided that it would be better if I don't go back right now. I'm really sad BUT I needed to put my selfishness aside (hard to believe, right Bill) and not go back right now. I miss Everying There, like you have no idea. BUT I HAVE TO THINK OF MY FAMILY FIRST AND NOT MYSELF. My sister had a great idea, I might volunteer at H.O.G. or at a Hospice. Not sure where but I'll let you know as soon as I do!

I'm back! Ok, so I went to my old department, right when I walked thru the doors, I was so excited just to be there. I went in thru the locker room and then into the lounge. All the people that were there were excited to see me and it made me feel so good you have no idea. I talked to my old boss and she said as long as I get cleared from a doctor, I can come back!!! I also need to do my "netlearning" on the computer at home which won't take me too long. My CPR is current and so is my TB test. I was shocked to find out that several people that I used to work with are no longer working there! A few I was glad to hear that they were gone, and a few not so glad. Oh well. It was so great to see Paula, Carol, Sara, and everyone else. I must say that there is one that still intimidates me. Not sure why, but I always end up saying something stupid to her, I'll work on it.
Now to Dean, bless his heart, he has been sick. come to find out, he has Mono. Poor thing...he knew something was wrong because he has been wiped out and now a terrible cough. Even though I was so tired yesterday, I wanted to take care of him because I love him and because he has taken care of me countless times. I just don't think I'm very good at it, but I do try. So please say a little prayer for him to recover soon. Thanks!
Now to the new addition...Tinker, or should I call her Stinker! She has brought fleas into our home and to our other dogs. Gross! AND she can climb on chairs to get to food! She is so much smaller that our other 2 dogs that I'm afraid to spank her like I do Mack because he is a hause. Anyway, I think that makes everyone up to date. Thanks for listening and reading!
Anna

Yesterday was a long day. I'm still tired. and yes, it is 3:34 am. I can't remember what I said in last posting about my job. But I'm sure all of you know that I loved working at WRMC in the OR. I loved all of the people that I worked with. (well, there was one or two I could do without) LOL Dean got a call on Friday while I was at the store. He was told that my job was going to be given away. I was sooooo upset, you have no idea. So! I went to HR Monday morning, and was told they haven't hired anyone yet. I was told to talk to my supervisor, I did, with my fingers crossed. Need more coffee, so I'll post again in a few minutes.

Good Morning! Got up at 3am BUT Dean got up with me, so I had a coffee buddy. We watched a movie, not great. Both boys are gone to school. Dean is sleeping. Zachary has an apt. with a surgeon today to get his wisdom teeth taken out. We are gonna try to make apt. for Thanksgiving so he won't miss too much school. Guess I will do some laundry today. I don't mind washing and drying, it's the putting it away that I seem to not be good at. I just need to remind myself that just a few months ago I was hoping and wishing for normal stuff. Ok, I promise not to complain about my chores. Not really, I will probably complain. Phych! LOL More later people!

Good morning everyone! First of all, thanks to all of you who leave comments about my posts. (Melanie, Robert, Eva) Ok brother...duh...don't take a nap....can't help it if I fall asleep sitting up, then lean over and end up sleeping for a while. Think you're being a smart ***. If I could smack you I would. Next time you are up here, I will. It's very early here, and I've been up for almost 2 hours. We went to Bentonville yesterday for Spencer's baseball games. He had a double header. The team won the first game!!! But we are thinking they gave up in the second game. The other team got some runs and we just gave up and started making LOTS of errors. Anyway, I have become THAT MOM that yells and screams at every questionable call. Not sure it is good idea that I go anymore. Gonna ask Spencer if my yelling bothers him. Well, that's all I got today, OH.....forgot....I did see someone from work the otherday, Gina! After she left, I cryed. My work called me and they are giving my shift away. So I no longer have a job to go back to. I loved my job and all the people I worked with. Oh well, guess this is supposed to happen. Not sure why, but there it is. I'm gonna go see HR on Monday to see what is up or not with my insurance. I'll let you know on Monday! Love you all and thanks for the support!
Anna

Ok, here is my problem now....I can't flippin sleep! Gonna look into bio-identical-hormomes. I had a hysterectomy in Dec. of 08 but I'm have HOT fLASHES LIKE YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE. I'M YELLING AT EVERYONE AND BEING MORE SELFISH THAN USUAL! IF YOU CAN BELIEVE THAT. Before I go to bed, I make sure there are at least 3 icepacks in the freezer, one for my back, one for my chest, and one for my head. My other sleeping meds were Lorazapam, which I'm told is pretty strong. Then they stopped working. Went to see my doc, but saw the A.P.N. instead. She gave me Trazadone, which did work for the first 2 nights. Then it quit working. I would wake up every 30 minutes, maybe 45 if I was lucky. So if the clock said ANYTHING close to 4am (which is when I used to get up) I would just say.."forget it, I"m getting up" Then start my daily routine. BUT I would fall asleep on the couch sitting up my 10am. So being without sleep for days...I took 3 Lorazapam (1.5mg.) and slept for 4 hours straight that night, which it a big deal for me. For those of you that can sleep, more power to ya! I called my doc and the HOG clinic (Highlands oncology clinic) couldn't get him so I talked to the PRN again. She said OH NO...YOU CAN'T TAKE THAT MANY, YOU MIGHT BECOME ADDICTED! She said to take up to 3 Trazadone, I would feel "hungover" in the morning and have cotton mouth but should work. SHOULD being the operative word. Well, I said, "I'm telling you what works for me and you don't want me to become addicted? What's it gonna do ....kill me? LOL Sorry, I had to say it. Oh well, that all of my rants for now...it is almost 11am, time for a nap. If anyone has advise for sleeping, PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!!! Have a wonderful day. OMG I almost forgot....weather is nice now, not so hot you can't breath.
Love to all,
Anna

Wow guys, sorry I haven't written in a while. I was busy last week, I think? LOL We had our first tailgate on Saturday...GO HOGS GO!!! Not quite sure I ever seen so many people. It is open bar and free food and I do believe that we had alot of walk-ins from the street saying "wow, this looks fun, let's go see" Once they figured it out that the food and booze was free, why go anywhere else? There were a ton of people I have never seen before. Lots of wasted people too, the older I get, the more I dislike drunk people. I did have two beers but didn't get drunk. The food was outstanding. I has 4 desserts. Not sure what it was, but it was fantastic! I lasted until the middle of the third quarter, then went to the car where my pillow was waiting and waited for Dean and Spencer to come back from the game. And YES!!! I did make it to church Sunday...we were even early. Great message as usual. Ok...still haven't figured out what is wrong with my computer, so before it all gets errased, I'm gonna post it. Then come back and write some more.

CRAP!!!! It happened again....two long paragraphs gone just like that! The short of it is I went into the kitchen and forgot to turn it on, which is a big deal for me having to wait an extra 10 minutes for coffee. Ok, I am so happy that I can drive around and do things by my self don't get me wrong. However, I can't remember anything and it is not just cause I'm 45 it is because of the tumor/removal/radiation. I need to start writing stuff down so I don't feel like an idiot. More later, maybe if I remember...LOL

Hello everyone...a bit late for me posting (9:03 am). I got up at 4:50 today, can you believe it? I'm still in shock. Yesterday I went to Rogers and got myself a new baby! (dog) Her name was Sandy but we changed it to Tinker. She is sooooo cute, she looks like a mini sheepdog. But she does have fleas. Spencer put her in the tub with him yesterday to bathe her hoping to get all of the fleas. She is still scratching this morning so I am taking her to "Rover Oaks" at noon for a dip and a cute bow!! If I figure out how to post pics...I'll post one of her. Gotta make the bed now, more later.

Good Morning! Thought I would blog before I have coffee. I did start the coffee maker, fogged the back porch for mosquitos, pottied, and can't wait to get outside cause temp is supposed to be in the 60's NOT in the 90's like it has been all summer. So, maybe my excitement for cooler weather got me up this morning, who knows. Maybe more later. My computer is still doing stuff without me so fingers crossed this post makes it.

Hey...I never found out why my post from yesterday just went away. Boy did you miss a great post. I was so funny, like laugh out loud funny. Oh well. I got up at 3:30 again today, drank a pot of coffee and watched my favorite tv show. The Real Wives of New Jersey. I do watch all of the Housewives shows. Dean doesn't like them so I have to watch them alone. He loves Family Guy (which I can't stand) so we watch our shows seperatly. I have a tip and a confession. First the tip. If you have to get up at night to go to the bathroom...if you sit there long enough...you can pee twice! ok now the confession. I fell asleep in church on Sunday during the prayer. I know that is terrible but when my head bobbed back up, the Pastor was still praying, I just hope no one saw me. (sorry Lord) Well, Dean just caught me sleeping on the couch in the living room and told me to go back to bed. So off I go for a while...till later my friends!

Don't know what just happened but my whole post was just erased!!! Ok..here is the short version. Got up at 3am again, stayed up to make sure I got the boys up for school. I've had a lot of coffee...blah blah blah blah. Gonna clean out the freezer today, lots of stuff that is a mystery. I'm sure there are some of you that can understand that. blah, blah blah blah. I'm gonna re start puter to see what in the heck is going on.

Good Sunday morning to you all...I slept for 5 1/2 hours straight...Holy Crap...(sorry). I got up at 11:30 to go to the bathroom and the next thing I know, I wake up and it is 5am!!! Well, last night was fun, I went to a wedding with Spencer at Stables on the Hill. It was beautiful. The bride was stunning. I must say it was a bit strange that there was no food but just desserts. Snowcones, smoothies, chocolate covered things, fruit, and more chocolate! We were hungry before we got there so as soon as left, we went looking for a place to eat. All places to eat in the huge town of Elkins were closed on Saturday night by 9pm. We went to eat when we got to Fayetteville. Maybe I slept better cause I stayed up past 9pm...what do you guys think? I'll try that tonight if I can stay awake past 9. I usually fall asleep sitting up with my glasses still on. I'll let you all know tomorrow. Love you all. Thanks Melanie for your comments....they keep me going!

HOLY COW!!!!! I slept thru the night without getting up to go to the bathroom! Can't remember that happening for EVER!! So maybe the trazadone works, but of course something good has drawbacks. It can cause weight gain. Well crap, I am already Oprahasized because of the steroids so another 20lbs....what can it hurt except my feelings and my closet. The price for health. The great thing is, my wonderful husband has NEVER said a word as I slowly "pork out" as I have said. he says he doesn't care how big I am...I sure do. You know when you see someone from your past and they look just like they did in High School.....makes me sick.....I'm so embarrassed to be seen right now. Oh well. MY KIDS ARE IN SCHOOL!!!!! More tomorrow.
Anna

Hey everyone...it has been a long time. I just got back from the HOG clinic to find out WHY I can't sleep at night. I can take great naps...but at night, I'll get up every 30 minutes, then 45 mins. And still wake up early! The other day I was so tired of waking up so often that I just said "forget it" and got up at 2am and started the coffee. Which is not too bad when I have a bunch of stuff to watch, but it is summer. By 8 or 9am...I'm falling asleep sitting up, bobbing my head. Oh well...life goes on. I called the Dr. again this month, just like last month and say the APN. She is very good and told me to tell the nurse next time..."I need to talk to Karen, not an apt!" Anywho...I got a new prescription for Trazodone for sleeping. It is usually for depression but she says it works great for insomnia. I will let you know in the morning. TOMORROW IS THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!! I"LL BE DOING MY HAPPY DANCE BY 7:30AM. LOL That's it folks. I'll try to post more often. Love to all
Anna

Good Morning! I have been up for hours but waited to post until I have had some coffee...well alot of coffee. I have had headaches again BUT I do believe their are sinus headaches. I am not gonna call the Doc cause I have an apt. early Sept. and I think I don't wanna know right now. We are going with, they are sinus or tention headaches. I'll keep everyone posted.

Sunday morning and I am getting ready for church. Really could stay home today but I do know that when I don't wanna go, I hear exactly what I need to hear, so I'm going. I'll let everyone know how it goes later. Bye for now! Hey...note to "Katie". You posted a comment about a month ago...Did we go to school together? Do we know each other? Let me know please, and thank you for your comments!

Hey everyone! Is it hot or what????? Oh my....I am not happy with this weather. I have been taking cold showers everyday. Here is what we have been up to. The family went to the lake for a few days, just to get away. One of Dean's clients has a lakehouse and said we can use it. This offer included the boats, moped, EVERYTHING you could need on vacation. We had a blast. HOWEVER...we did come home early because of the heat and because Spencer broke his wrist hotdoggin on the "tube". This kid was ripping it like you would not believe. I drove him into town to see our Doc (which we love) and 7 x-rays later....broken. NO FOOTBALL THIS YEAR!!!! I love to watch him play, I'm hoping I'll be around next year to watch him play. We came back early cause he was the only one really wanting to ride anything. We took our dogs, Mack (labrador) and Zoey (collie) Mack loved it and did a "Superman" dive right when we got there. Zoe, hated it and was mad to even be there so Dean took her home. So glad we were only about 20 from home. Feels like a million miles away. Oh well, back to the grind. Great news today....Zachary got a job at Taco Bell!!!! He starts as soon as his uniform gets in. I am so tired of him saying....I need some money moma. Or so and so needs gas money. NOW I can ask for gas money! Love it. Thanks for reading
Anna

Hey everyone! Saturday afternoon and boy is it hot. I sure wish more of you would post comments. It's really not that hard, I promise. Not sure if I should keep posting, not much going on. Maybe I'll re-start when the cancer comes back. Just make an apt. to get my tator washed...just cause I don't have much hair, doesn't mean I don't like my head washed. I'm also gonna get my uni-brow done. The family is going to the lake on Monday for a few days. We are taking the dogs and I can't wait to see which one likes to swim...my bet is on Mack (he's the Lab) I'll let you know next week. Anyone think I should ski? Maybe just get on the tube? Who knows, maybe I'll just go wild and have a beer!! LOL

Good Morning, it is....well, I have no idea what day it is. I guess I am forgetting more and more. gonna have to start writing stuff down. Did yard work with spencer yesterday, gonna do more today. After yard word we went to Millie's to swim and had an overall great day. I went to 2 meetings last night and did share a little bit. I do now realize that alcoholic is outa my control, not my fault, and not my problem. Thought for a long time that if one of my children was going to dye...I would stop drinking to help in anyway I could. NOT the way it works. It is MY choice how much time to spend with the persons effected by alcohol and drugs. It is my turn people....and I'm taking it now!! Maybe more later, if I remember! LOL

Sorry it has been so long since my last post. It is Saturday morning and I know this because I asked my husband. Sounds funny but for the last week, I have been forgetting everything and sleeping like you would not beleive. One day I slept about 20 of 24 hours. I layed down to take a little nap on Thursday about 1pm and woke up at 7:15 at night. When I got up, I went into the kitchen and made a pot of coffee, thinking it was morning and that I had slept the day away. If you know me, you know that I get up VERY early. After a long conversation I did realize it was Thursday evening. I missed my Al-Anon meeting which I really wanted to go to. ALSO...I can't remember anything!! I can't remember if I grounded my kids or banned them from Video Games or not. Thank goodness they don't "play" me. So...at my boys and husbands request, I called my doctor. Went in yesterday, and they are thinking it is my steroids that were halfed about 10 days. Now are back to full dose, 4mg/per day. Down side, I will be more angry and more swollen. Fabulous, already can't fit into anything I own. My ankles are huge, like I'm 40 months preggers. BUT the good news is....I'm alive! Large and lovely and living. More later, if I remember. LOL

Hey! It is Friday afternoon and I just got back from my apointment. All went well...Dr. Haywood loved my tator head...he called a few people into the office saying..."Look at Mrs. Stone's head!" Now I didn't think it was a big deal but they sure did. Apart from gaining about 6 lbs. I am doing really well. Dilantan level is 16, which is where it should be. I asked..."What now!" He did say there were options, he said last time there were none. I can have it removed again and have a chemo waffer put in. And a few other options but I can't remember the names of the meds. HOWEVER...he did say that none of them seem to work. So....a funny thing is...Dean is still gone with the boys so I went on my own...Dr. Haywood asked how was my support system? aka no Dean I said it's great! He said well, last time you two seemed a bit conflicted. I started laughing and told him that was just our banter and he was outa town and we are fine! Not sure if he believed me. I go back in September for a check up. I did ask a question for Dean. Is my memory loss because I'm 45 or because of the tumor. He said...to my suprise...50/50. Crap, Dean was right. Thing is I can't remember if I grounded the boys or not, which can be a point of real conflict. Gotta get ready for the boys to come home!! Love to you all.
Anna

Good Morning everyone! Well, my guys are on there way back home!!! I am looking forward to having some noise and a bit of laundry..hehehehehe. (ask me again on Sunday) I had a great meeting last night, and I was thinking last night, Why do the addicts in my life do what they do? Then it hit me....Not my fault, Not my problem. That is really hard to admit and to live and let go but I will try and focus on me and mine instead of these other people. Anywho....more later folks!

WOW did I ever need that meeting! I have to keep reminding myself that it is not my fault that the user uses, nor can I do anything to help or make them stop. I only have to worry about myself. Not sure why I always want to "fix" people but I'm learning to let all of that go, and accept the things I cannot change, and the wisdom to know the difference. That's what I will be working on for now. I have my apt tomorrow afternoon and I will post to let everyone know how it goes. Have a wonderful evening.
Anna

Second post today....it is HOTTER THAN YOU KNOW WHAT HERE!!!! Dean's Redneck swimming pool is looking good today. I am going to an Al-anon meeting again tonight again and boy do I need it. I wish I understood why dissfunctunal alcoholics keep showing up on my door. Or close to it. I know I won't get answers but I do feel better when I go. I'll try to post when I get home to let you all know if my attitude is any better.

Good Thursday morning to you all!! I has a really good day yesterday. I went to Rogers for lunch with my kinda, almost sister in law, then suprised my almost parents in law for a visit. I dated their son in my 20's and boy did I love them, still do. They are the most down to earth, real people I've ever met. Don't get me wrong, I love my REAL in laws and they are wonderful! Lee, Tonia....you guys are awesome, and I am so lucky that you are my in laws. My guys are in Holland, Michigan and might be home on Saturday. I do miss them. I need to get ready for laundry. More later.

Morning! Up early today...about 3:45. Kept getting very cold then sweaty, couldn't sleep well. My guys are still gone, travelling the U.S. and having a blast. One of my friends called me yesterday to "check" on me and made me laugh...she said..."Are your boys still gone? Yep....she said...Bon Bons and Pajamas!!" Which is true...I've been eating what I want and wearing my pj's still I have to leave the house. I took my friend and neighbor Alice to her doctor apt. yesterday which happened to be at H.O.G. (Highlands Oncology Group) she doesn't have cancer as far as we know, just the doctor is in that building. MY oncologist called yesterday to see if I could come in for blood work before my apt. on Friday! I told the nurse...I didn't even know I had an apt. on Friday!!! I'm gonna give them a piece of my mind on Friday. Same office, nurse, doctor that made me wait DAYS to find out my MRI results. God forbid they or someone they love gets cancer. Today is Wednesday, the day I take 50K of vitamin D. to help my headaches. Thinking it is working. Headaches are getting better, who knew all the stuff your body needs. Gonna drink coffee now...more later maybe...maybe Friday!

Good Friday Morning! I have waited a few days to post so that I could calm down. I wrote a post on Tuesday that has upset a lot of people. Here it is...I said when I started this post that I would put in the Good, Bad, and Ugle. Tuesday's was ugle but it is what it is. Those of you who don't like it for me to talk about dying...read someone elses blog. It DOES NOT MEAN THAT I HAVE GIVEN UP OR THAT I DON'T HAVE HOPE AND FAITH. IT IS REALITY FOLKS. If it is too upsetting, please stop reading this blog and find an all happy one with flowers and sunshine. The truth is, if someone you loved died, would you want to sit around looking at everything of theirs, and all of their clothes and say..."Oh....remember when they wore that!" Not me and I don't want my family doing that either. I'm trying to think of them for a few days instead of myself. Although I am selfish, controlling, and a bit of a *itch most of the time, I'm trying to think of others right now. SO IF ANYONE WANTS ME TO EDIT THIS BLOG AS TO NOT UPSET ANYONE....BITE ME!!!!! Maybe I won't be so witchy tomorrow. Amen.

Hey everyone! well, let me tell you about the day I had on Sunday. Went to church, didn't want to but I know that when you don't want to go, you will hear exactly what you need. Boy did I. Bad things do happen to good people. We may not understand it right away, but it will be for the good. Also, I've been having trouble with something. My husband Dean has told me that when I die, he wants to move and sell all of our (my) stuff. I would cry and say "no way, this is the boys home!" I had never thought that it would be harder for them to stay with a reminder of me everywhere. I have since changed my mind. While they are gone on their "man" trip, I'm going to go thru as much as I can for donations so they don't have to after I die. Ok, second part of Sunday. We went to the lake! Dean, Spencer and I and we had so much fun. We have new friends that invited us to their lake house (OMG) Dennis and Carrie Nelms. The food...to die for, 2 boats, 2 Sea Doo's and anything else you can think of to have fun. We were gone for amost 12 hours AND I had a beer. I know, I'm going to the wild side. We got back at 11pm and I went right to bed. I got up at 4am as usual, went to potty, got back into bed, and slept till 1:30pm. Had a drink of water, pottied, went back to bed and got up at 4:30pm!!!!! Can you believe it? I can't. It was worth it, my legs are so sore from squeezing on to Dean on the Seadoo. I have no idea how to spell that or anything else for that matter. LOL I can say that I lived out loud on Sunday and hope to do it again very soon. That was my Sunday and Monday. Back to reality, LAUNDRY...at least I can still do it right? Love you all.

Sunday morning around 7am. I had a wonderful visit with Bill Burke yesterday! He has been one of my biggest supporters. Big thanks to Karen for giving him time to come for a visit. He and Dean both yelled at me (kinda) for not posting everyday. You guys can bit me! I'm trying to get my like back while I have it. We went to one of our parties yesterday, I was so tired. I did drink a beer, maybe that is why I got so tired. OH!! Kathy!!! I saw your brother yesterday...we call him "Coach Turnbull" I'm so sorry I didn't get to see you while you were here but he said how busy you were and he only saw you once for a short time so I don't feel so badly. Anyway, I will try to do better on posting more often. TRY!!! One of my friends at the party said something to me yesterday that I wanted to pass along. She said...I have wanted to call or post a comment on your blog but I really don't know what to say! I told her.."That's ok...just say that!" I really do understand that when I'm gone, life will go on for everyone as it should. So, just email or post a comment that says...thinking of you...that's it! If Bill can post, anyone can! LOL Might be going to the lake today so I will post later tonight or tomorrow. Love, Anna

Morning! Well, we didn't do very well last night, but that's ok. Not too sure the kids had much fun either...that's not so much ok. Thinking the coaches wanted to win way more than the kids. I'm thinking of going Thrift Store shopping today!! Ya know I'm feeling better when I wanna do that. I'll let you know what gems I find. Big 4th party this weekend at P&H's. I always look forward to their parties. My Monday post will give details. more later guys!

Hello everyone, it is Monday the 28th of June?! I think! I had 2 apts. today...one with my PCP and he says my thyroid is too low and my vitiman D is WAY low! So, he upped my synthroid and I am to take a ton of Vitiman D then check back in 8 weeks. He said it could have been the radiation effects that has everything outa wak. The Neurologist agrees so more meds for me. I have been feeling preaty good, so with all hormones back in order, imagine how wonderful I'll feel! Watch out! I'm getting ready to go to Spencer's baseball game, they play for the championship tonight. It is like the World Series for little leaque. We are all very nervous. I'll let you know how we did tomorrow. Gotta Run! Love to all!
Anna

Good Morning! It is Tuesday June 22nd. and I have missed a few days..so sorry about that. I do have to tell you all something funny. I went to Wally World the other day all by myself which was a big deal. I bought a huge bottle of shampoo!!!! Not sure why cause I don't need it, so if anyone needs shampoo, give me a call. I know what you all are thinking...it is from the tumor...(her brain doesn't work any more) Nope...I am 45 people and having hot flashes like you would not believe, even though I don't have girly parts anymore and taking hormones, I am flashing all over the place. Anyway...that's all I have for now, I promise to try to post more often.

Hey! still Friday, not sure where I left off but found out this morning...Cancer is not back which I was sure of because of my headaches. I made an apt. with my PCP for today to check on headaches and my high blood preasure. All of which can be managed so I'm good. Gotta check my dates cause my Aunt Millie says I have missed some of the days...gonna look now. Have a great weekend everyone! I know we will.

Happy Friday everyone!! Well, I must say that I have been beside myself for days waiting my MRI. ALL CLEAR!!! Holy moly, I really thought it was back for sure. I fell on my knees when she told me, really. I had left a stern message this morning about that no one had called me yet and I didn't care is the janitor called me I wanted to know TODAY!!! My PT is here more later!

Hey everyone, it is Tuesday evening and I can't wait to go to bed. I went to the Oncologist today because of my headaches and my volcano hotflashes. I have an MRI tomorrow so we will see if the cancer is back already. HOWEVER, I now know why I went to the Dr. today. I have never seen the waiting room so full and I sat in the only open seat. This wonderful couple that was next to me started a conversation. I won't try to repeat it...it was about an hour long. I of course started crying in the waiting room!!! She told me that a bit over 2 years ago, feeling fine, she came into these offices and was told....I'm so sorry Vicki, you have 30 days to live. Holy Cow....over 2 years ago!! WOW!!! She has lung cancer that had already spread to her liver and brain. She asked me if my prognosis was good, and I said no. Then I said...The doctors don't know everything!! Mr. Dees said isn't that the truth! So whatever the MRI says tomorrow....it's not in my hands. I told Vicki...if I would just make it until my son's graduation, I'll be ready. She told me she had said those things too. She was very comforting. I'm not worried about the dying...it's the before that scares me. Anyway, that was today....tomorrow is another story. Till Then!
Anna

Good Saturday Morning everyone!! WOW sis I have a great time last night!!! Spencer's Baseball game was amaizing! A real nail biter but they won 7-6 and they beat the number one team. Spencer plays catcher and first base and got many important outs. Can you tell I'm a proud moma? It is so much fun watching him play BBall and Football too.
Well, feeling the same, still have headache which sucks and still don't want to know if it is the cancer. Just gonna live everyday and enjoy it. Sorry to those of you who want to know...maybe another day.
Thanks for the laughs the other day Bill, I look forward to seeing you and meeting your wife and children this summer!!
Spencer says "Hello and love to all"! Do you think he reads this blog? Gotta go..love you all!

Thursday, I think! I say I think not because of a brain tumor but because I'm 45! All of you out there know what I mean...seems like when you get into your 40's, you can't remember anything..HOWEVER we ladies still remember more then our wonderful husbands, partners and alike. We can still find the keys, glasses, and important stuff. I started PT yesterday and hope I will be stronger soon. Don't want to run a marathon or anything just wanna walk like I'm not under the influence.
Thanks Bill for the laughs!! As long as I can still laugh, I'm doing well. FYI..head still hurts but I'm just going with it. Sorry for all of you how think I need to fast track to the doctor. Not sure yet if I'm gonna do it that way this time but I will keep everyone posted. Gonna have coffee outside now! Love you all!

Good Sunday Morning Everyone!! Normally this would be a great day, but for the past few days I have woken up with a headache. Not sure if I wanna know what it is or not but I will let you all know. Not sure I'll make it to church today, if my headache gets better, I'll go. School is almost out, one more day for Spencer then starts the whole.."I'm so bored" That means...take me somewhere, do something for me! As one of my friends says..."The whole world revolves around HIS bellybutton" Thanks for that Eva! Gonna go lay down now and pray my headache goes away...love to all!
Anna

Good Morning! Having Monday a holiday has thrown me way off. I thought it was Friday. It's not!! My nurse comes today for a blood draw to check my dilanton level AGAIN!!! It can't be rocket science people. At 600mg. I was at toxic levels, I now take 500mg. and it was too low (7) should be between 10 and 20. Only 100mg difference so......next week I might be falling down again. I'm gonna get some answers today. I talked to another Cancer patient at church and she and I think and agree that everyone has to take control of ones own plan and care because mistakes are made everyday and follow up is up to us not waiting on the doctor to call and say..."How is it going?" or "Why don't we do this?" I should be doing cartwheels by now and I'm not. I will post again after I talk to the nurse. She is a really nice person but today, she is not gonna like me very much.

HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY EVERYONE!! I went to church yesterday then a party later. Boy did I get tired. Dean brought me home early to rest. I didn't even have a drink, which I was gonna do but it didn't sound good at the time. I have a question...does anyone have a manuel on how to raise kids? Mainly boys?? I find myself yelling more even after I count to 10 and say to myself "peace". If anyone has some good pointers, please email me or on Facebook to let me know. We are going to my Aunt Millie's today for a bit of family fun. I'll be laying down while everyone else is swimming and eating. But it will be fun to be with family. I'll post all happenings tomorrow. Hope you all have a wonderful day!!

Happy Memorial Day Weekend everyone! We are going to a party Sunday and I am really excited. I have to tell you I had a wonderful night last night! My brother came over and we sat outside for a while then went to Hugo's for dinner. That place is still the same as it was 20 years ago. It has been open for 33 years, we were told. They must be doing something right. Back home for some strawberry shortcake (from Dean) and a bit more of a visit. I cried during dinner cause I'm not sure how many times I will get to see him. CRAP crying again. Not sure what would be worse....dying before you spend time with the ones you love or dying suddenly. I was told, I will have a great Spring and Summer, Lord willing, I will be around a bit longer. If I would see Zachary graduate and Spencer play football again I would be happy. Oh...Spencer says hello! More later when I can see the keyboard!

Hi all! I went to a Neurologist today just cause I don't have one here in town. The only think new he said was I need Physical Therapy and he will keep an eye on my Dilanton levels. Dean and I went to lunch after and we decided to make a "bucket list" for me. We know it will come back, just don't know when. I'll let you know what is on my list when I get the courage to make it. Unless we win the lottery, it won't be anything HUGE but it will be great if my family and friends and on it. Now that I'm sad...I'll post more later or even tomorrow.

Sunday Morning and another night well slept!! Maybe...just maybe I am on my way to the "Great Spring" I was told I would have. Still not gonna over do it but yesterday, I bleached my whites, I know that sounds silly but all of you moms know how important that is. There is so many things I wanna do but I will take it slow. Promise! Ok, the questionable post has been removed, if anyone has an issue with any of my posts, please let us know. At some time or the other all of us has been hurt terrible by actions of others. Hurt feelings, crushed spirits and so on. I have chosen to deal with that pain myself and look inside for what is my part in the situation. I may not ever know what I did, but it is what it is. I only hope others do the same. More later! P.S. If this post bothers anyone, please let me know, I would be more than happy to talk about it.

Morning!! Wow...I slept pretty good last night for the first time in 6 months. I woke up rested and feeling a bit better. (always remembering not to get too excited) I've been excited before about feeling better, then have it get bad again. Yesterday was great. We went to Spencer's 5th grade meet for a couple of hours, then I went to one of his games with some family. Boy was I tired when I got home. I promised my honey to take it easy and not try to do too much too soon. It will be hard...soooo tired of doing nothing. I was thinking about trying Yoga to get my muscles moving again. I'll let you know how that goes. As always...love to all and thank you for your support.

Good day...Anna went to Spencers school track meet at the high school, then tonite she went to Spencers 2nd baseball game...his team had a double header..they won the first and lost the 2nd....both of us are tired and i hope she will post for saturday....thanks...Dean

hello all, its Dean....Anna had a better day today, she did not get sick...Yahoo!!!!
she was prescribed some medicine to help her sleep better...(oh no ,more snoring.)..we both had some quality time together sitting outside and talking...beautiful day today...i made spaghetti for Anna tonite ..she told me it was great(my ego swelled up)i also made meatloaf(for another day)....almost forgot i also made brownies...(its like a Donna Reed show)...Lisa (Anna's sister) brought some awesome cookies for her tonite..Thanks sis in law that really made her day!!!...also Bill B called today..that what great..thanks Bill...also thank you Eva for your kind words today..that means alot to Anna..sorry i ranted and raved yesterday...i did not intend to piss anybody off..and for this i am sorry...i have many shortcomings(Anna says too many to list)im not sure if i mentioned that our oldest boy Zachary obtained his driving permit yesterday..we are so proud and happy for him...also Spencer(our youngest) is chomping at the bit to play baseball..(they have cancelled so many games due to rain here)Friday he has a double header and he cant wait...i think Anna is going to the first game(that is great!!!)its getting late
we are both tired..will update all of you Friday..thank you for all your prayers and love...

It's been almost a week since last post and if I didn't post today, Dean was gonna freak! It has been a bit of a rough week...allergies with high dose/several antibiotics have been making me sick and I think you all know how much I hate to throw-up! Only 5 more days of the antibiotics and I hope to be done with those. And ladies...we know that taking those means!!! That is uncomfortable in itself. Because of all of the rain, Spencer has 7 games next week and I hope to make it to at least one. Ok, well I blogged and just talked to my brother....huberhot???? What ever the heck that means...I was thinking...Tiger instead. More another time...thank you all for keeping up with me!

What a beautiful day!! I have been sitting outside for over an hour soakin in the sun. I figure my tator can't get more dry than it already is...LOL I had the energy to argue with one of my children today so you know what means...I'm feeling better. Now I gotta figure out how I can get back into daily living, slowly of course but I am ready to cook, clean, all the other stuff that a mom and wife does. I do have a request of my followers...please pray for my mom who is having a double mastectomy on May 12. I'm sad to say for many reasons I have'nt had much of a relationship with her for several years. Boy, this is one of those times when I needed my mother but it wasn't meant to be. Oh so sad. I'm gonna go back outside now! Enjoy the day!

What a great day!!! I have been having panic attacks for 2 days just thinking of what was gonna happpen. BUT no drainage of the boil...and NO eye surgery either. I did bring my liquid Valium to both apts. and didn't need it. My Doc wanted me to share...LOL I didn't of course but he said it might make his day go faster. Anyway, oh ya, he also told me that he thought my hair would grow back. I was told that my hair folicals might have been damaged and it wasn't gonna grow back. I really liked my hair so the hair thing plus the panic issue this has not been an easy few days. Oh...my dilantan level was down too!! It was 56, should be between 10 and 20 and now it is 26. That is why I am feeling better. As my Dad says.."Onward and Upward!" Have a great weekend everyone!

Good Morning! I have to say first how great it was to talk to KJ yesterday!! We talked for an hour...I talked..hehehehe. I'm oh so glad I'm not the only one that can't remember stuff. Anyway...here is the latest on me. My eye is ...not sure...BUT now I have a huge boil or zit under my arm that my son had about a month or so ago that had to be lanced and drained. It was MRSA which is an infection that is resistant to antibiotiacs!! Dean is really upset with me because I won't go to the doctor this morning. I would rather have another brain surgery than have my doc stick a needle in my boil. How crazy is that? I told him I need to prepare myself for that first and to give me a day or so. I do have lots of meds to calm me down and might just have to take them in order to go. I'll let you know. I am really sad that I won't see everyone this weekend but soon, I promise. I'll try to post later today. Love Ya!

Party is postponed until later this summer!!!! So sorry guys but I might be having eye surgery on Friday. Eye infection turns our to be a clogged eye duct and it is not getting better. I feel terrible and want to see all of you. I mean really see you all. I'll keep blogging and let you know the new date. Thank you to all all of you who were coming outa town. I'll keep ya posted!! Anna

Hey! sorry I haven't posted in a few days. Pretty good weekend, didn't go to church. I have some sort of eye infection and I know that everything I would have touched there could have gotten someone else sick. OH...RHONDA...what is your cell number please. Just call my cell or Dean's and we will have it. I only have your home number and Lisa has been trying to call you for days on your home number. Well here is some news...since the cancer is gone....why can't I get up and around and why did I fall so many times. Here is a clue..I take Dylanton everyday so I don't have a seizer. One of my Docs put me on 600mg a day. Went to the doc of friday and asked him..."What the heck!!" He did a blood test...the levels are to be between 10 and 20. His nurse called me today and said "STOP TAKING IT UNTIL THURSDAY" I missed the call, so I called back and she told me MY level was 56. Dean looked it up and this could be the reason along with the radiation, why I don't feel better!!! My sister is worried that I'll be too worn out to come on Saturday. I am coming guys so that I can thank all of you for your support. And maybe have a drink!! we will see. as always...love to all!

Sunday nite..Anna is sleeping..(snoring)..kids in bed...looking forward to better days..Anna is not using her walker..Yahoo!!!!!!still slow and wobbly..looking for a light at the end of the tunnel......hope everyone had a great weekend....g-nite

Hello to all....it's me Anna!!! I've been a bit under the weather for a bit but I'm back!!! Had apt. today with HOG Dr. and he did confirm the MRI was all clear. But not sure why I keep falling. I will figure it out somehow. Can't wait for the party next weekend! It will be great to see everyone...i'll be the one with the walker and helmet. LOL See..I can still joke. I asked the dr. if I could have a drink and he did some bloodwork to check my levels of all my stuff cause when I started seeing crickets in the bed....Dean took over all the meds, as well as the blog. So, I will let everyone know on Monday what the Dr. says...oky doky? WOW it took me about 30 mins to find the button for question mark....maybe I should put my hememt on. Not sure that would help. OK, I am so tarred I gotta go to bed, cant wait to see all of you next weekend. Love to all!
Anna

We have a 10;45 appt with Anna's oncologist Friday, it is a 3 week follow up from the MRI she had..we have a list of questions for him..Anna is feeling a little better however she did fall down last nite...I took Spencer to the Razorback baseball game Wed nite..Zachary called me and told me she was sitting on the floor when he arrived home...Anna told me she was getting out of bed and she felt dizzy and just let gravity take over...I dont know what to say...this has been like a bad movie..and im confused and pissed at the whole damn thing...why is she not feeling better..im sorry for the rant...will update you Friday PM...i hope Anna will post....

Shame on Anna for not updating her blog...she told me she would...nothing new to report on my end..i was hoping Anna would have started back up again...

anna told me she would post today....that did not happen...she wants to go to church sunday...im going to upset her and tell her no....she is not ready yet...next week if she keeps getting better as she has been for the past few days...see ya.Dean

we cancelled Anna's Dr.appt today...she is still not feeling well. im taking some antibiotics for an eye infection (allergies)i think Anna now has the same thing..im feeling a little better..sorry for the short updates...i wish i could say something positive ..and i look forward to that day(soon i hope)..we have a nurses aide coming 3 days a week,and a nurse coming 2 days a week, they are from Washington regional pallative care(hospice)..its is helping out alot..its giving me time to run errands and misc for a hour here and there....still hoping Anna will regain better ability to walk without aide....also im dealing with insurance company issues..i feel like im doing there job..they are saying its pre-exsisting condition however i have all the documents coming to prove that we have been insurable since we moved here from Kalifornia(said with German accent)...all i can do is document all my calls whom i spoke to and get ref #s....wow am i rambling(iced doubleshot from starbucks)yes i am....will talk Saturday..Dean

Meeting with Anna's Dr. on Friday.....will update you with more when we return.

Good Morning!! Well, I have some funny and some ugle! First the ugle...I have fallen a 3 times in the last week and it freaked me out!!! I'll just be standing there and down I go. Into whatever or however is in the way. NOW the funny. I txted my Doc. and asked him.."What the heck!!" His wife called me back and said...well...do you have a walker? Yes..I hate it...she said use it all the time ...OR...wear a helmet!!!! Thinking I'll use the walker. Can you all see me in a helmet?? So, I have decided to use the walker for everything. I hate it..but the alternative is much worse. So if I show up to the party in a helmet and a walker...this is why. Love to all
Anna
Oh...big thanks to my lil sis Becky for the visit and the food!!

sorry for the late post... Anna is feeling a little better today...im feeling a little under the weather...(stress)....thats all....sorry

hey its Dean...nothing new to report..Anna is about the same..having a hard time keeping her balance, her friend Becky came over to visit and brought some wonderful food...(thank you)...Zachary went to the prom last nite. he brought all his friends over Saturday and we took pictures with him and Anna and myself along with his "Posse"
Spencer spent the nite at his buddies house ..so it was just me and Anna last nite..we watch 3 episodes of 24 from(still have 3 to go to catch up)we had a great nite...little or no drama...it was nice to spend some quality time with Anna...and im grateful for this...Sunday morning i slept in..Anna made it to the kitchen for coffee and watched tv..(she told me after that she was dizzy and afraid to get up)..anyway it was good day..if Anna is not feeling better in a few days im going to try to see her Dr. and see if he can tell us what is up...she is taking all her meds, i think at this point that we cant blame the steroids...so what is it?..thanks for reading...maybe 1 more episode of 24 tonite?....

It's me!! Yes, I'm tarred, but boy did I have fun with my friend Rhonda! My face plant (into the pile of dog beds I have to add) how lucky was that? Yes...my son is going to prom tonight so I gotta go get him ready, and it just started raining. More later or tomorrow.

Its Dean....1st i want to thank Rhonda for spending Thursday with Anna....she had so much fun...she was so happy and i thank Rhonda for this..also the AWESOME lasagna!!!!
today Anna is very tired(so much excitement)she is still very weak...she did fall twice today..1st time when she was in the bathroom this morning(she told me this tonite..afraid i would be mad)..2nd time when the Doctor from Washington Regional came over...she did a face plant into the dog bed...Soft landing...Honestly im not sure what is going on i've been told that the reason she had so much trouble last week was the fact that she stopped taking the steroids...(she is back on them)...after the Dr.s appt monday they said 2mg twice a day...the Dr. today said 4 mg twice a day is the norm...i do know that the part of the brain the tumor was located affects your emotions and some judgement ..i am grateful for the good news of the no recurrence of the brain tumor..however i have taken everything the doctors and specialist have told us with a grain of salt..im not sure what im trying to say..i have built up a wall in my head(denial)....my faith in many things has been faltering..im in protector mode...its all about what is best for Anna(and the boyz)...im shadowing her all the time...she hates it because she is so independent ..but knows she would do the same if the shoe was on the other foot... enough rambling..thank you for sending greeting to Anna...she does not check her computer much..if you want to send them to me please do so as i will read them to Anna as they come thru.....stonesat@aol.com.......will update Saturday..BTW Zachary is going to the prom Saturday..Anna is so happy and wants me to take pictures of him and his date and his posse...

Good Morning Everyone!!! My friend Rhonda is here "annasitting" with me today while my husband is working. and we are planning a HEALING PARTY!!!!!!! May 8th at 7pm and of course it at Rhondas!!! And EVERYONE is welcome. Now I do have some short term memory loss so if I don't know who you are please forgive. See Ya then!

OK...EVERYONE HOLD ON TO YOUR HATS.....THIS IS ANNA BY THE WAY....THE RADIAOLOGILST JUST CALLED........RADIADIATION WORKED!!!!!! NO TUMOR LEFT OVER!!!!!!!

hello...long day..we went to see Dr. at 8;30 this morning...he feels that the meds are all messed up..maybe too many steroids..so he set the dosage to 4 mg a day instead of 4mgs 4 times daily...(but it could be the brain tumor)also, Anna had an MRI today and we will get the results on Tuesday....also they arranged to have Washington regional ...Palliative care(hospice)
they will have a nurse come 2-3 times a week plus a caregiver to come and sit with her when needed......i will update you tuesday when we find out about the MRI...thanks Dean

Hey its Dean...sorry to post so late..just wanted you all to know that Anna is about the same..maybe a little better.she did lay on the couch for about an hour this morning(i had time to put fresh linens on the bed)...the boyz helped me do a good cleaning today on the house....they have been spending more time with Anna...(i think that is important).tomorrow we see Dr. Smith at 8;30...im hoping he can tell us what is going on...is it the steroids or is it the brain tumor?..will update on monday....

Its Dean....No change..she is on all her meds as prescribed and she is hydrated...i have a bad feeling about this....if she is not better i will tell doctor on Monday that she needs to go in hospital.i think something else is wrong....will talk soon..

Hello all...its Dean...well more drama at the Stone household..this morning i was laying in bed drinking coffee(round 7am)..Anna was waking up and i said "good morning how are you"she said "i have to go to the bathroom"...i said "hang on"..before i could get around the bed to help her up she had flung the covers off of her and did a superman face first on the floor...busted up her lip and smacked her head pretty good...of course the kids witnessed this..Zachary and i helped her up and we got her to the doctors office shortly after...Doc said the lip would not need sutures and he gave her an IV of fluids and steroids...i brought her back home around 11am...Spencer did go to school and i dropped off Zachary at school around 9;30(they kept an eye on Anna at the Drs office....ok what can i say...this is messed up!!!i will refrain from using some choice words....im worried...she is back on the steroids...why is it taking so long for her to return to normal(what is normal?)..why is she still trembling why cant she hear very well..why cant she walk..why why why....i spoke to her nurse at the oncology clinic...she spoke to Dr. and he says its because of the sudden stop in taking her Steroids..we still have a Monday am appt...im wondering if something else is going on...Anna is saying things that are blowing me away..shes repeating herself,talking about wanting to die...she is just not well....enough from me..im tired..hoping Saturday will be better.goodnite

Its Dean..Wow what a weird day ...Anna is still having issues ..im having a hard time believing that not taking the prednisone for a few days would whack her out this much....she is resting and ive been giving her the meds ..making sure she is taking what has been prescribed..
im tired and cannot really put to words what i am feeling..im worried for Anna,im worried for the kids..im really scared ...will talk friday...Thank you Lisa for coming today....