Friday Febuary 26th! I spoke with one of my nurses yesterday several times on what to do with this "I wanna throw-up" situation. She called the Dr. and he said "We don't want you to throw-up, peroid!" So stopping the zofran is out, however, he also told me to stop the twice weekly antibiotic/anti-viral meds and also NO Chemo pill until I see him on Monday. I'm hoping I will feel somewhat normal this weekend. He is thinking that the IV chemo might work better (don't think I agree with that) and we will reintroduce the other meds one at a time to see if one or several is the cause of the nausea. ALSO!!! I got the results of my Dylantin level too and I again need to increase my intake. Now taking 200mg/3times a day, now they want me to take 900mg/3times a day...HOLY COW!! The last thing I want to do is have another seizer because it scarred my children and my husband half to death. I must first, before i continue say I am sorry for all of my spelling mistakes, the Spell Check does not work on this blog so there it is. Anyway...gotta get ready for Radiation so more later!

Today is Thursday morning and I am re-thinking the zofran. Although is keeps me from throwing up...it does nothing for the nasuea which is overwhelming everyday, all day. I might try not taking it for a day, at least I will feel a bit better for a few minutes after throwing up. This feeling is terrible!! I got up at 4am which I am used to. That is the time I would get up to go to work which I miss. I love all of the people that I work with. I understand that life goes on and will go on with or without me. My husband and I joke sometimes (ya gotta laugh or I'll cry)about all of the lamps in the house. I love lamps, lighting where you need it and they look cool! Right Ladies?? Anyway, I told him that his next wife or girlfriend will love them...he said...NO...whatever your sister doesn't want, the rest are going to charity. I'm working on that. I want him to find love again if I should I not survive this fight, but LEAVE MY LAMPS ALONE!!! LOL I am going to radiation again this morning and hope that I don't go nuts when they "lock" me in with the mask for treatment. I always feel like coughing when told not to move and everything itches. I wonder why that is? I will keep you all posted on the zofran issue when I decide what to do. Maybe a day of throwing up will change my mind on stopping the zofran because as I have said before, I HATE THROWING UP!!

Today is my 45th birthday!! Had my treatment today then had a little snack but still feel crappy. Might even take a nap. Slept about 10 hours last night and woke up again about 2:30 but didn't throw-up. Got the new meds but find out that they are the same as before (zofran) but just ones you swallow, not disolve under your tongue which taste like an orange dipped in metal. They don't get rid of all of the nausea but seem to keep me from throwing up which I hate!!! No big plans today for my birthday, just gonna lay low and get thru the day. I told my guys (Zachary, Spencer, and Dean) no gifts as all cause you can't take it with you. They did get me a wonderful card with singing dogs that bark "happy birthday"! It was perfect. More later...thank you all for all of the Birthday wishes..Love you all!

Sorry, still learning how to do this "Blog", hit a wrong button and couldn't go back to finish. Anyway...we went to a Pizza place and I ate an awesome dinner. It tasted to good! HOWEVER, about 2:30 am, it came back up. Not so good coming up. Relaxed a bit and ran around with my sister Lisa and cousin Jeannie Saturday. Sunday, went to church and I cried almost the whole way through as usual. Then the whole family went to Golden Coral for lunch and cake/cupcakes too! I took it easy on the food, oped gifts and had to leave thinking and feeling like I was gonna barf. Got home, took meds. and rested for a few hours luckily with no vomiting. I hate to throw up more than anything. I'm taking the chemo for more time which I really want. I want to see my boys graduate from High School, and everything in between. I would love to see my grandchildren but not sure that is in the cards. NOW I'm crying!! crap, more later.

Well, we got one computer working so I'll let you know how it's going. Had a radiation treatment again today and it went well. Took chemo pill again this morning and now starting to feel sick. Had a meeting with the Radiologist/Oncoligist and told him I need more zofran than prescribed, he said no problem. He also told us that when treatment is over, we will do an MRI to see how what was left of the tumor reacted to the treatment. Fingers crossed and prayers being prayed, are that it did. If not, he said we will just go on and do what I want without checking every month because...why torture myself every month with uncertian news of what we cannot control. Unless there is a cure, it will come back. Ok enough of that. I had a wonderful weekend!! My wonderful and amaizing brother and his family came down and my cousin Jeannie came down for a weekend of ME!! Friday night we went to "

Computer has been out so I will post in a bit to let you know how the weekend went!

Morning! It is 10:30 and I took my chemo pill about 3 hours ago with my zofran and fingers are crossed that I don't spend half the day in the bathroom again. I am going to my sisters house to see her and my wonderful cousin Jeannie. I will be bringing my barf bag just in case. I will let you all know how it goes later.
Anna

Ok...today was terrible! I took my chemo pill this morning and a few hours later, I am throwing up like there is no tomorrow. I was really hoping that the "pill" form would not make me sick, but no such luck for me. Dean called my Dr. and I went in for an IV of zofran and fluids. I do feel better but I'm not sure my weekend plans are gonna happen with this new issue. Not really sure I want to throw-up for 6 weeks but I will do it for my children and my husband in hopes I do get more time. Only the Lord knows. I will be 45 next week and am grateful to make it until then. I am hoping and praying for 80 something but will have to trust in God's plan instead. If he needs a 45 year old mom...who am I to say no to the big guy? I'm a bit tired so that is all for today. Love you all!
Anna

Today was my 3rd day of radiation. My chemo arrived my Fed-Ex today. I'll start taking it in the morning. (stomach has to be empty) I was so shocked that chemo is now in pill form...yeh me! IV forms are much stronger and they are the ones that make so many people sick...we will see. I'll keep you posted on the sick thing. I am very tired all of the time, some say because of the radiation but it is because I don't do anything but eat and watch tv. My doctors all told me no more dieting at all..eat what you want, and boy have I. Right now my favorite is Taco Bell and Health Candy Bars. Not at the same time, maybe next week. heee heee heee. More later!